Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Nice Wednesday

Dad had a nice night last night. He got to go out with a friend of his last night and he enjoyed himself. I am glad. His doctor told him that he is going to give him something because his ears are itching but he also recommended him to an ear-nose-throat doctor. They sent him some papers and he doesn't want to go. I told him that if he didn't want to go then he didn't have too. He was in a really good mood that is always good for me. I got to work today for 6 hours and working tomorrow for 3 hours. Then we are off until at least Monday. I can't believe that it has gotten this slow. I sure hope it picks up by next couple of weeks. I can't wait to go HOME.
59 Days left

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Quick talk

I only talked to dad for a few minutes this evening. He was getting ready to go out. That is a good sign for him. He was happy and said that everything was fine. Just glad that he is getting out of the house. I get to go back to work tomorrow for 6 hours at least. That is also good. But don't know how many hours I will get the rest of the week being that Easter is Sunday. Oh well. Everything will be ok I guess. Until tomorrow.
60 days to go now

Monday, March 29, 2010

Sunny Monday

Talked to dad for a short period tonight. He was excited because he got his checkbook balanced and did not overdraft it this month. That is always good news. Plus his doctor prescribed some "Boost" so he can gain weight and he start taking that today. He was in a really good mood. I was happy to get good news from him for a change. On the other hand, when I called work today, I was told that I MIGHT work Weds. That just sucks. Now that I want the time and money it is not there to get it. Good thing I worked Friday and got it on this weeks check. God only knows if I will have one next time. And with my unemployment being held up that sucks even worse. At least the kids are working. The oldest one got called off yesterday but they called him in today for an hour more than he lost. Thank goodness. I pray everything will be alright. Thank the Lord that we get assistance for food and that will be updated at 1am thurs morning. Look out here I come grocery shopping.
61 days to go

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Dad Called me

For a change dad called me tonight. He was confused on what 03-30-2010 meant on some food that he just bought. I explained to him that it is not until tues. He was ok after that. I was surprised that he called me for a change. I was glad that he called me instead of me calling him. We had a exciting quiet night being that the oldest two were gone. It was just 3 of us at home tonight. It was weird being that it will be like that in a year. Oh well another day. Only 64 more to go.

Friday, March 26, 2010

Good Day

Talked to dad for a little while today. He cleaned his tank again and now there are bubbles on the side of the tank. I think it is just because of the new water. He also went to the doctor today and he gave him new meds for his ear itching and he wanted something to gain weight. So he gave him something for that also. He had a good day all around being that he kept busy. I got to work today and get a few extra bucks on the check for Easter. Counting the days 64 more to go. Hope everyone that is keeping up with us can pass our message along. If you could also help with donations that would be great too.

Thursday, March 25, 2010


Finally, some good news. 2 kids working and me getting more hours. It is finally getting better. Still not as good as it can get but better. Dad is feeling ok but still depressed because of him money being short and no one to go out with. He says that either they are too old or don't take care of themselves. For daddy being 82 years old he sure is a picky fellow. I just wish I could be there now to help him take care of his bills and balance his checkbook if nothing else. I hope all starts going well again. There is just 65 days until graduationa and we can get back home. Please God just let everything go ok from here on out. I can't take much more disappointment.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Stupid Cold Weather

If weather is any indication on our emotions this cold weather is sure depressing. Dad was in a sad mood today when I talked to him because it is cold and windy there and he doesn't want to go out in it. The nurse came today and got his pills laid out for the next couple of weeks for him. I think dad is starting to feel like he is unable to do anything. He has a nurse coming in to make sure his pills are laid out for him and I keep a check on him every evening. I hope that he feels better once the weather warms up all the way and he can get out and walk like was doing when it was warmer last week. And the medical bills keep piling up on him and he doesn't have as much money as he did durning the month being that he has to pay them. I wish I could help him out but we are just making it here and trying to move back home.

Well the middle child goes for orientation tomorrow. So now we will  have 2 of the 3 working. That is good. Hopefully all will go well and she will be able to save some money too.

Til tomorrow.

Monday, March 22, 2010

What more can happen?

When I talked to my father tonight he was really down in the dumps. It turns out that the nurse that has been coming in to see him every Monday did not come today. He was kind of upset about it. I told him to call the lady and get it straight. Then he has been raising angel fish and they died on him today. He seems to think that it was some kind of junk in the bottom of the tank. He is going to completely clean it out tomorrow and try again. I hope it works out for him.

Our middle child got good news today. She is going to orientation for her job on Weds. At least then she will have money that she can spend on herself and save for what she wants. Thank God. And hubby has a couple of job interviews back home the Monday after Easter. Maybe with the grace of God everything will work out.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Rainy Sunday

Well, it is another weekend gone by and it was raining most of the day today. I hate rainy days. They seem to drag on forever. Then to top it off I called my boss tonight and was told that I would not be working tomorrow and to call tomorrow evening to see about Tues. What the heck. I know we have a huge order that needs to go out so how can we not have any work to do tomorrow. This is a crock. I can not wait to get out of here. I am seriously thinking of not even letting my work now know when I am leaving. Being that I am the only one that does my job there it may hurt everyone. What am I supposed to do? I want to keep this job but at the same time need to find something more steady. But then again I am only going to be here another 68 days, no matter what, and that will not look good on an application back home to get a job and leave it in less than 3 months. I am stuck. Dad was ok today. Rainy weather there too. I guess it depresses everyone. He really didn't want to talk alot so I let him go. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day all the way around.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

A Beautiful Day Outside

It was another nice day outside both here and back at home. You know lately I have been thinking alot about what I post on the day to day basis. And I have come to the conclusion that the old saying is true. "Home is not the place you lay your head, it is where is heart is." And in my instance, home is not where I am laying my head at night, it is back in my hometown with my dad. I have begun to count the days until the oldest one graduates and I can get out of here. 69 days from today. I can't wait. That is sad to say after being here for 10 1/2 years and thought Iwas happy but was going through the motions.

Friday, March 19, 2010

Uneventful Day

Well, the water is back on thank God. Dad said that he went to the doctor's today and it was the same old story. Had his blood taken and if they needed to change anything they would call. Thank God he has his nurse coming in on Monday to keep up with his meds. He was kind of depressed today though. He said that he went to the park and walked because the weather was so nice. I think he is getting upset because he has so many medical bills now that he can't do things like he used to. He just doesn't have the extra money. I wish I could help him but I am struggling as it is and I want to get home to be with him. Please let things start to turn around.

Another day in my life

Dad seemed to be depressed yesterday when I talked to him. He talked to his girl friend and worked things out. It turned out that they both thought that each of them was going to call. Got to give dad credit. At his age of 82 still worring about going out with women. I got my paycheck yesterday and it was just a little over what we needed. So I guess the next couple of weeks will be very slim in our house. That is ok though. As long as we have food, electric, water and a place to live we will make it through. Off of work today, always are on Friday and back on Mon. Hopefully I can get a full week in next week. It would be so nice to get a decent check instead of one that is just enough to pay a bill. Well, I guess I get somethings done til later.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Another Day of just being here

Well it is St Patrick's Day, my mom's favorite day of the year. I can't be happy though. My water is still off til Friday which is payday. But at least the oldest ones girlfriend is helping out with letting them come over to shower. It isn't easy on me to call on people for help. And the kids are so much help. They except the problems as they come and just roll with the punches. And thank God I am working again today and tomorrow.  Dad's bank account is screwed up again. They are saying that he is using his debit card and he is not according to him. I wish I was there to keep it up to date. It is so confusing. Hubby has had a couple of telephone interviews for a job back home. Please God let them work out. If they do he will be leavintg soon and staying with his sister. Hopefully, all be worked out in the end. Keep us in your prayers.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

My life sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Once again, I get screwed every way I turn. I came home early today from work only to find out that my water has been turned off. I don't get paid until Friday so now I have to figure out how I am going to wash my hair for work, clean dishes and cook. Plus how my kids are going to clean themselves. Why is it always just when you see some light, it gets pitch black again. I am not getting anywhere. I just want to sit in a corner and cry forever. This is not how I saw my life at almost 40 being. I never thought in my wildest dreams that I would be wondering how I was going to pay my bills. Please God give me a break. Just a small one would be nice. Just an inch. I can't do it anymore. I am at the end of my rope. I need someone to help me. I am done. This life sucks. I need a new one. Just someone to tell me it will be ok. I don't have anywhere to turn anymore.

Monday, March 15, 2010


My poor dad is so lonely. I talked to him this evening for about a half hour and he just rambles on and on about his fish tank and his car. All of his friends are either passed away or sick. And all the girls that he has been talking to have are either sick or out of town. I feel so sorry for him. I just wish I was there for him to have somewhere to visit or someone to go and visit him. Only a few more months and hopefully, we will be there. He is going to go back to the fish store tomorrow and get a few angel fish so he can try to breed them. I hope he will be ok.

Sometimes I just want to....

Did you ever have a day that started out wrong. That was today. Got up to a broken coffee pot and it raining outside. Then I realized that I am not working today so another day that I don't get a paycheck for. Then go out looking for another job and come to find out that a gentleman that I used to work with has been out of work since 2008 and is still looking for a job. Can it get any worst. I am sure it can I just don't want it to. I am down to my last $20.00 and don't get a check until friday so hopefully we don't need anything else this week. I know the oldest one has gas money so he can go to work. ( Thank God). And I guess I am just frustrated because I used to think that we could do this with some ease. I was wrong again. I just want to get up enough money to pay the bills here to keep the electric on, water on, and a place to stay while looking for a place back home. Please God give me a break. I am begging it.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Such a boring weekend

The weather has been miserable and I really don't want to do anything. I tried to talk to my boss on Friday and was informed that I was not working on Monday and did not know when we would be back to work. This totally sucks. I am going job hunting tomorrow. Hopefully I will find some type of steady job. I need to catch up on so many things that I don't see an end. Dad is having a bad weekend too. He could not really go anywhere because it has been raining there too. His girlfriend cancelled their date on Friday being that she has unexpected guest come in from out of town. He was a little upset about it. I just wish he has someone to keep him company. I know it has got to be lonely when most of your friends are gone or sick.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Why does always happen

Just whe we start to get on a roll something always happens. This time it is work. I hate the fact that I never know when and how long I am going to work. I worked Tues all day and half a day yesterday now I am off until at least Mon. This sucks. I want a job that I know I am going to work continuously but here they don't exist. I just want to be able to pay the bills and save some money for moving home. The oldest one just wants to go to prom and get this year over with. Thank God he has a job. He is only working 8 hours a week though. How is he going to save any money over the next 3 weeks? Please God give me a break.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

It's A Great Day

It was a beautiful day today outside. Dad had a good day today too. He went out to get his car washed but they wanted too much so he is going to do it himself tomorrow. He has another date on Friday after his doctor's appointment. He has to go every other Friday for bloodwork. I guess he is feeling better because the weather is getting nicer. I am glad. He talked to one of his friends and they told him to check with his landlord about houses for us. He is getting more excited now that it is getting closer to us moving home. I just hope we can do it. I only got to work a half a day today and am off the rest of the week. It totally sucks. Oh well, the only thing I can do is pray. I know it will all work out.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

A good call

Today was a good day. I got to work for 9 hours and dad had everything straightened out on his end. I guess there are going to be these kind of days. His nurse came back by today and got his pills set out for the next week. Dad was complaining about some dizziness and he told his nurse about it. She said that it is proably something to do with his ears. He said that it was better today so maybe it is just a small infection in his ears. Dad's neighbor gave him more food today and he is getting his fill.  I am glad that he has neighbors that watch after him. I just wish we could get some more time in at work so I could catch up on my bills and save for the move back home. We are so far behind. I just need some kind of break.

Monday, March 8, 2010

Busy Day for dad

Dad seemed to have a busy day today when I talked to him. The nurse came in to help with his pills but he had to have her call the pharmacy so he could get more of his coumadin so she will be coming back tomorrow. Then he had a date. Yes my father at the age of 82 had a date. The lady is someone that he has known for some time from what he says. They went out to breakfast and sat and talked.  Dad is still having some problems with his memory but at least he is still able to get around by himself and go do things. I am grateful for that. We still have not told him about his Alzheimers but he talks like he may know.  When he has a bad day he will say "I think I have the start of Alzheimers" or something to that effect. Dad is a proud man and if he knew the main reason I wanted to move back home was to watch after him and eventually have to make decisions on his well-being he would be furious. For now I am just glad he can still be somewhat himself.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Another Day of checking in

Talked to dad this evening and he is having a really good day. He did alot of running around and shopping. He also cleaned his house from top to bottom. He has his nurse coming in tomorrow to check his pills so he is excited that someone is there to help him out. His neighbor brought him chicken to eat and told him tomorrow she will be bring him spagetti.

He really loves his fish and was talking about his tank. I told him about my cat having kittens and he talked about how fun they are. But he can't have one in his little apartments. I wish he had a bigger place that was not in the basement. But he likes where he is. I guess tomorrow will be a day that we will know more about how he is doing.

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Things Seem to be getting worst

Today seemed to be one of those bad days for dad. I was talking to him this evening and he could not remember the day of the week it was. Then he could not remember what the name of the newspaper was that he has been reading all of his adult life. It really makes me sad that I am not there to help him get through his everyday life. Please God keep him safe and get me HOME!

Friday, March 5, 2010

A Good Day

Dad had a nurse come in today and got his straight on his pills. Thank God for small miracles. I am so glad that he changed doctors and they are taking care of him now. They are really nice and so supportive and that is what he needs. I also feel better knowing that someone has the patience to keep up with him and me being that we are 400 miles apart.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

A Bad Day

Yesterday was a very bad day. Dad was very confused on how to sort out his pills. We were on the phone with him for 2 hours trying to get it straight and still no success. So after trying to explain how to sort them out we finally told him to go to the doctor's first thing this morning. So that is what he did. I called the doctor's office at 9am and dad was there. I talked to the nurse and she explained to me that they had straightened out his pills for today and that she was having a nurse come to his house tomorrow to get his pill straight for him. I thanked the nurse and gave her my number so if anything happened they could contact me.  I wish I was there to help him out. Just a few more months and we will be home hopefully.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Another phone call

I can really tell that dad is getting bored with being in the house. He said today that he went out just to look around. He actually got a couple of angel fish for his tank yesterday and is think of breeding some so he has something to do. Please just let the next 3 months turn around and get me home.